ANGST

semua yang aku buat semua tu x betul...aku tak tau la wei...aku rasa apa yang aku wat tu dah ok...tp nape still ada org yg pertikai apa yang aku buat...kenapa tak benarkan aku blajar dari kesilapan aku sendiri...instead of show me everything ...i hate it....bila dah jadi macam ni... semua bnda yang lepas muncul balik dalam otak aku...aku x suka semua bnda ni...tak suka ..i cant cry as much as i want...i dont have anyone to share my pain...biar la kita susah ckit pn asalkan makhluk yang lain x terseksa...biarla dia duk dalam tu brbnding duk dalam sangkar kecik tu..i never have someone that say i understand...where r they when i need my support...where r they when i suceed..where r they..at home...haha ..i'm alone,,,but i guess they just either dont care or just too busy with other distraction..selfish...i dont know...sometimes i also a selfish...but i guess ..i'm hurt with their action...alone when other have their parent waiting n seeing their sucess..i guess i never be the one that they want huh,,,sorry....

EMO

I as a women ..we do always emo..sometimes we cant never explain why we become like this...because this emotion or should i say feeling is a delicate things for us...for me ..i'm emo when i read story or fanfic that are well develop and sometimes mood time baca tu stay dengan aku sampai la aku baca cerita lain plak...ikut ar klu happy ..happy la aku hari tu tapi klu genre angst ..haha BEWARE DONT COME CLOSE...right now aku terasa moody gila bila dark besar tu balik n feeling neglected..hmm macam x ja...more too...on the edge to become green eyed monster...huhu bnda ni x boleh sjak dari zaman sekolah dulu...but rationally..dia balik pn bukan selalu..so biar la kan..yah enough with that..back to me

uploading my life

k since last sept or should i say this june..i am the officially the caretaker of my lil brother...i dont mind about that..but sometimes when you dont have much friend and ur close friend is busy and ur classmate continue their study..u feel a bit lonely...plus with no income ..i cant go anywhere...i feel trapped..boring..i have to be careful the way i talk with other...i'm feeling too tired..i need someone to lend me their shoulder for me to cry on..for me to say everything that have happen to my life..for me to say what other have say to me..their hurtful glance..their harmful whisperer..the one that i have to faced every time with  a smile.. :) the one that i have to think fast to create a white lie..my heart feel heavy with all this sort of things..its not like i dont love my brother but sometime i need a break too..but i realize my lil bro need me more than i need other people...i have to accept it..